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I think Im going to do some time in
purgatory for the ways I havent lived the gospel in my life. This
Sundays gospel (Mark 6:7-13) is a particularly difficult one for
me. Jesus says to his disciples take nothing for the journey.
Yet here I am on vacation (in an undisclosed location) having packed every
square inch of my car with stuff.
And its not snorkeling equipment or
tennis rackets... its stuff that Ive been meaning to
get to: Books and magazines to catch up on, my laptop computer so
I can work on new sections of the parish website that Ive been wanting
to do for a while, a little left-over paperwork. Some vacation!!
I cant get the hang of this Sundays
gospel. I cant let go. Its the pack-rat in me. I realized
when I moved here two years ago that I had unopened boxes from my first
assignment as a priest -- I had kept them for 12 years without ever looking
in them. Hey who knows? I might need that stuff some day (whatever that
stuff is). and who knows, one day I might actually have the time to open
those boxes and look through them. (Dream on.)
There are some things I wouldnt ever
want to give up -- memories for one. I have such beautiful memories of
the people in my life (and yes, a lot of them are on videotapes which
I plan to watch someday). The memories of people whom I take with me for
the journey strengthen me and give me comfort.
I do understand what Jesus asks us to do
in sending us with nothing for the journey. He wants the encounters of
each day to be unencumbered by the past. We ought to be able to experience
each new relationship for what it is -- not reduce it to a comparison
with the past. Our encounters with each new person ought not be bogged
down by old baggage. We ought to be free to see each person as a new gift
from God and to appreciate each person for who they are.
Maybe in the two weeks ahead Ill have
a chance to get rid of the stuff I brought with me and come back free.
Or maybe Ill just fall asleep in the hammock and get to this stuff
another day.

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